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Rizuuki

I'll come back. I promise.
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You know... I wish I was 12 again.
I wish I was so full of motivation, and creativity, and had so much passion for art as I did back then.

But now, 6 years later, I can't even finish a single drawing. Because everytime I start something, it ends up being only a sketch. A sketch that will never be refined, coloured... And it seriously makes me feel torn apart. I literally am sobbing right now.
Why is nothing going right? Why can't I draw anymore? And it's been almost 2 years now that I've kept asking myself.

I miss this site. And I miss the FA. The community. The people. The joy of commissioners when they received their paintings. The thrilling sense of accomplishment after I submitted something. And I am just wondering what happened that all of this has just disappeared for me.

But deep inside, I hope that I will come back here. Someday. Maybe when I move out and finally have some true peace. When all this stress I receive at home will be gone... I don't know.

And I just hope some of you won't forget about me. As Rizuuki. As Freeska. Whatever.
Just.. See you in a better time.

Love you all.
~R
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Throw at me your favourite characters from manga/anime/Ghibli movies/stuff.
I need to practice.
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First of all, yes, I'm ALIVE. Sorry for the lack of activity! Many things happened and some just kept me from drawing. I promise I'll post more from now on. 

Tomorrow I'll have 50MB/s instead of just 8 <3 So that means I finally will be able to do some streaming! Hmmmm, and with a mic maybe? Llama-Emoji-12 (Left and Right) [V1] 
I'm just thinking if anyone is interested in watching me draw? Because much time ago there were a lot of viewers, but the last time I streamed there were only 3 or 2, so I don't want to go live just for myself lol.
And how are you guys? I really want to talk to you! I've been so anti-social lately that it's crazy. :I

Oh, and what should I use for streaming that's most comfortable for you? Livestream? Picarto? Join.me? Please write in the comments. :heart:

- Rizuuki
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